Brenda Moguez
caught my attention with a question she asked "What was your defining moment (discovery of shero powers)?"
The question
implies that there might be only one discovery, yet as I consider the moments
that have defined my "shero powers" it is difficult to settle on just
one. Any woman who has given birth has a set of shero powers that she acquires
as the fetus is developing, and again during the birthing process, is that enough?
Perhaps it could be the ability to find a valid purpose for every dialectic exposure
life has offered, is that too much? I want to answer her question!
There is a need
inside me, to find one, unequivocal response to Brenda's question, yet reconciling
with a solitary answer is a cagey process. It is possible that no matter what
my answer might be, there will always be another, one that is more worthy of
taking credit for the paradigm shifts that have created the character that
inhabits my body.
"Settle on
one and write about that!" she screams from my left.
"Which
one?" I ask rhetorically.
"Does it
really matter?" she asks, as though it is the least of her concerns.
Under my breath I
answer her, "yes, for some reason it does."
Maybe the process
of consideration is more important than actually figuring out where my shero
powers have come from. After all, I can leap short coffee tables in a single
bound (if I am chasing the cats), I am more powerful than a slow commotion, and
I am able to fly off the handle at will…super powers indeed, but I'm sure
that's not what this is all about. It is those moments when the situation that
threatens to steal common sense out from under someone is defied, and they come
out the other side with a bit more skill, instead of a lump on their internal cranium,
that make a difference. The moments in which a person goes beyond their own
ability to achieve something that changes the way they perceive themselves.
Yes! That's what this is about.
"Have you
come up with something yet?" she asks.
"Yeah, I've
decided this is a really good question, that is not going to be answered after
having thought about it for a few hours. It may take days, or weeks to really
flesh out the response."
She shakes her
head at me "What the hell is so important about THIS question?"
"I don't
know, when I figure it out, I'll write it down and you can read it for
yourself."
"Whatever!"
she says as she leaves the room.
Wow, now that it's quiet in here again, maybe I can think about this more clearly.
Maybe you can help me think this through!
Maybe you can help me think this through!
I love the inner dialog between you and you! Perfect. I am also tickled pink you took up the gauntlet to write about it. Your selves are current, there is always more than one moment in our lives we think is THE MOMENT but later we're unsure. I have had a few such discussions as you have above, but none quite compare to that first year in the UK. I confess to wondering if there is a tipping point (like year one in the UK) and followed by many other such moments, each building on our shero powers. What do you think? So please to have found your blog, too. Always a mystery to me this virtual world.
ReplyDeleteThank you Brenda for making the journey over to this side of the cyber pond!
ReplyDeleteYou did three huge transitions in one fell swoop, that multiplies the effect, and the memories created for that period of time... chances are it WAS that ONE big one (for now) that could not be ignored, nor minimized. I think the shero powers continue to grow, and express the strengths after the moments that they were birthed in have passed. Sometimes it is not until years later, when a review of some such circumstance is considered, that we find we have been gifted yet another shero power. I like the term, and what it signifies to me, and others (from what I could see on your blog responses), a gift born of chaos, or trials... what a wonderful way to eek out the beautiful nature of dialectic existence!
I'm glad to have found your blog too... it inspired me :-)
k. i like this. it is something you must think about before writing about it. definitely. great post. d.
ReplyDeleteThank you d~, it was indeed a deep topic to consider... and consider it I have been doing!
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